Sophie’s Turning 2 – A reflection
Sophie’s first birthday
Sophie’s turning two in a week’s time and I feel like time is just passing so fast!
She was hardly walking at one! She only walked at 15 months comfortably. Now she’s running (a little 
), trying to hop and jump and talking so much! She demands to do things her way and can articulate that super well – "Nooooooooooooooooo! I do it myself!" Er, ok. Sometimes I wonder if I’m cut out for motherhood being pretty non-confrontational myself. I read that it’s time for the terrible twos where they will throw tantrums because they are developing a sense of identity, suddenly realising that they can make either a dent or difference in this world by exercising their freedom of choice – oooooooooooooooooo YET having a lack of expression or vocabulary! How exciting YET how terribly frightening at the same time! I guess in a way I can imagine how Sophie feels.
There is so much to consider at this point as she develops her character. It’s starting to dawn on me how daunting parenting can be! Argh!!!!! What if she turns out spoilt because weak willed mother here me failed to guide her in the right ways????? Or what if she is reclusive coz her lazy parents prefer to just stay home to rot? (Ok, maybe not, Sophie is hardly reclusive) Or what if she doesn’t reach her maximum potential because I’m intending to homeschool her??? Or what if she turns around and blame us and say we’re not good enough parents? I know a lot of youths (me included) have harbored thoughts like that!!!!!
Ah…………………………………… faint.
And at this point, the very pleasant and very Holy spirit sends a reminder:
"Do you not know? Have you not heard?
The Lord is the everlasting God, the Creator of the ends of the earth.
HE (in a loud voice) will not grow tired or weary and his understanding no one can fathom.
He gives strength to the weary and increases the power of the weak (moi moi moi!).
Even youths grow tired and weary, and young men stumble and fall;
but those who hope in the Lord will renew their strength.
They will soar on wings like eagles;
they will run and not grow weary,
they will walk and not be faint"
Isaiah 40:28- 30
Beautiful is our God, the universe will sing. Hallelujah to You our King.
I’m thankful I’m not doing this alone. God who created Sophie will bring her to completion and the fact that He is willing to use a broken vessel like me proves His amazing grace and love. I’m honored God chose me to be Sophie’s mum. I think she’s an amazing girl.